#97 - The case for having an imperfect memory – a psychologist explains

The case for having an imperfect memory – a psychologist explains

Illustration of a young man looking puzzled with question marks floatiing around his head 365daysStudios/Shutterstock Gillian Murphy, University College Cork

Think back to your time at school. Were you hard-working, popular, anxious? And what exam grades did you get? Now, imagine someone pulls out your school reports from that time. How closely would they match the results you just brought to mind?

If your recollections match exactly, you might congratulate yourself on having an excellent memory. But as a psychologist who has spent years researching what people remember – and misremember – my work often challenges the idea that the “best” memory is always the most accurate one.

In fact, some of the distortions commonly regarded as memory failures may be signs of a healthy and adaptive memory system. In many aspects of life, research suggests people misremember their past in predictable, self-protective ways, reshaping experiences to support their current, positive sense of self.

#96 - The Levitation Conductor

I went to bed for half an hour this afternoon and woke up four hours later.

That was not the plan.

Somewhere in the middle of it all, a train conductor taught me how to levitate. I cannot remember whether this was part of the normal service or whether I had been upgraded. At one point, it snowed.

Meanwhile, my body was doing something almost as strange. When I lie down, the coughing stops, and my nose stops running. Apparently, I am allergic to being upright.

Rhona just let me sleep.

“It’s okay, you’re ill,” she said.

Sometimes, the kindest thing another person can do is give you permission to stop. Rhona did that, and my body took full advantage.

Four hours’ advantage.

I’m awake again now.

Gravity, at least, has returned.

#95 - The Insurance Fluctuation

Things have moved pretty fast with our house purchase.

Just last week, we received the news that the Land Registry had been updated to show Rhona and me as the owners of our small cottage in Adisham.

What an achievement.

The only fly in the ointment has been insurance. Specifically, life insurance for me.

I have Type 2 diabetes, raised blood pressure and high cholesterol. Oh yeah, I’m overweight too. From an underwriting point of view, I am considered high risk, even though I feel fine and am working hard to improve my health.

Despite this, I have been rejected by the first company we tried, Royal London.

FFS!

#93 - The Four Agreements Approximation

I'm not a religious man. I do, however, hold to the theory that the universe is a living system, and we, by extension, are a reflection, or possibly the evolution of the universal consciousness. 

I picked up and read The Four Agreements by don Miguel Ruiz again this week. It's not a long read, but it is very relevant to this post.  

Here's what the book is about.

The Four Agreements is a simple guide to living with more peace, freedom and authenticity. Its core message is built around four principles:

  1. Be impeccable with your word. Speak honestly and use your words to build, not harm. Avoid gossip and say what you truly mean.

  2. Don't take anything personally. Other people's actions and opinions usually reflect their own beliefs and experiences, not your worth.

  3. Don't make assumptions. Instead of guessing what others think or mean, ask questions and communicate clearly.

  4. Always do your best. Your best will vary from day to day. If you consistently give your genuine best, you'll avoid regret and unnecessary self-judgement.

#91 - The Descendant Hypothesis

I often wonder why. Why do I do what I'm doing? Why do I not do certain things anymore? Why don't people like me? Why don't I like people? 

Why am I writing this blog? This question is probably the easiest to answer. 

A few years ago, I became interested in telling my story. My life has been a rollercoaster ride. The highs and lows have caused great joy, deep sadness, and turmoil. But the ride is and has been incredible. The highest high was becoming a father. Parenthood completed me; it helped me find my rudder and, of course, some direction.

#90 - The Surgery Threshold

Early 2025

This is not another full surgery post. That story already exists elsewhere on this site. This is the bridge between the long archive and the present-day recovery.

By the time the archive reaches this point, the thread is clear.

Health stopped being background noise.

It became the story.

#89 - The 2024 Recovery Loop

January to November 2024

This piece gathers the main personal health and work posts from 2024. It was a year of returning, relapsing, adjusting, worrying, working, gaining weight, losing rhythm, facing the hip properly, then getting knocked sideways by Covid. Not a clean recovery. More of a loop.

#88 - The Arthritis Adjustment

November to December 2023

This piece gathers the late-2023 health posts about arthritis, work, fear, fasting and another attempt to rebuild from what the body was saying rather than what the mind wanted to believe.